Wow so its been a long time since I have been on here!! I just wanted to give an update on things.... I just had my 4th child. A girl her name is Melia Taumafa Taholo. Another beautiful blessing in my life. So now I have 4 munchkins under the age of 3 in my house. You can imagine how that is effecting my speech and conversations with adults. lol But hey there is never a dull moment in my household. My husband works 16 hour days so whatever time we can spare with him we take advantage of. I go back to work in a month... I cant wait to get in the swing of things and help out financially with my family. Made friends and lost friends... It has been a good few months. Of course I have my trials and tribulations, but I am trying to work on that. I am gonna try my hardest to start going back to church on a regular basis to start teaching my kids and building a foundation to have them live their lives on. I have seen a few of my firends go through some hard stuff these past few months and it kills me cause I cannot do anything to help but to listen. My prayers are always with them. I am not pregnant for the first time in forever... lets see how long that will last... hopefully a while!! lol I cant wait to start get in shape physically and spiritually!!!

My little family went on a Sunday drive today and we went to Antelope Island because we have never been there before. Besides the smell every now and then it was actually a very peaceful beautiful place! We went to this cliff to look over the lake and beachfront. While we were there enjoying and taking in the scenery I had some time to think as well as i could tell my husband was also thinking. But since I cant read his mind I can only blog about what my thoughts were throughout our little outing. Anyway, first thing I thought about today was where we were at in life. We have had our struggles but for the most part i think we are keeping our head above water. We could discipline ourselves alot better, but for the most part I could pat myself on the back! Second thing I thought about was my kids and how much of a blessing they have been to my life and how much they have taught me about love and patience ;-). Third thing I thought about was my husband and the hard work he does to provide for us. He has his own struggles as well as trying to take care of all of his loved ones not just his own little family. That is a great thing about him is how much he cares for the ones he loves. Lastly, I thought about a good friend of mine. She is outof the country at the moment for a funeral. I miss and love her dearly. She has impacted my life so much since I have known her, more then anyone ever has in my entire life.I hope she will be lifted a little bit from this trip she is taking seeing her family despite the circumstances. So lets see what the future holds for all of us and move forward in life!

My Favorite Movie Quotes....Bare with my dorkyness

Blades Of Glory
Jimmy: Get out of my face.
Chazz: I'll get inside your face.

Jimmy: I see you got fat.
Chazz: I see you still look like a fifteen year old girl, but not hot.

Kung Fu Panda
Po: Legend tells of a legendary warrior whose kung fu skills were the stuff of legend.

School Of Rock
Math is a wonderful thing. Math is a really cool thing. So get off your ath. Let's do some math. Math, math, math, math, math.
Dewey singing

Dumb and Dumber
Harry: 'Yeah I called her up, she gave me a bunch of crap about me not listening to her, or something, I don't know, I wasn't really paying attention.'

Anchorman
Ron bribes the announcer]
Announcer: You're watching Channel 4 News with five-time Emmy award-winning anchor Ron Burgundy and Tits McGee.
Veronica Corningstone: Good evening, San Diego. I'm Veronica Corningstone. Tits McGee is on vacation.
Ron Burgundy: And I'm Tits... I'm Ron Burgundy.

Veronica Corningstone: ...and that can be very distracting. Okay, so when we get to the pet shop...
Brick Tamland: [while coughing] Cough. Look over here.
[spoken]
Brick Tamland: Excuse me, Veronica?
Veronica Corningstone: Yes? What is it, Brick?
Brick Tamland: I would like to extend to you an invitation to the pants party.
Veronica Corningstone: Excuse me?
Brick Tamland: [struggling] The... party. With the... with the pants. Party with pants?
Veronica Corningstone: Brick, are you saying that there's a party in your pants and that I'm invited?
Brick Tamland: That's it.
Veronica Corningstone: Did Brian tell you to say this, Brick?
Brick Tamland: No. Yes. He did.
Veronica Corningstone: Okay. No. I don't want to go to a party in your pants.
Brick Tamland: Very well. Ian, would you like to go to a party in my pants?
Ian: No, Brick.
Brick Tamland: All right. Let's go.
[runs off, there is a sound of crashing off screen]
Brick Tamland: It's all right. I'm all right.

Ace Ventura
Ace: "If I'm not back in five minutes...just wait longer!"

Beaches
CC Bloom: But enough about me, let's talk about you... what do YOU think of me?

Cool Runnings
Yule Brenna - I'm going to kick your butt
Sanka - How bout I draw a line down your head so it looks like a butt?

Robin Hood: Men In Tights
Achoo: "Hey, Blinkin!"
Blinkin: "Did you say "Abe Lincoln"?"

[Blinkin, the blind man, is up in a perch looking out for strangers.]
Robin Hood: "Blinkin! What are you doing?"
Blinkin: "Guessing. I guess no one's coming."

Prince John: "And why would the people listen to you?"
Robin of Locksley: "Because, unlike some other Robin Hoods, I can speak with an English accent."

Waterboy
Bobby Boucher: "I like college and I like football and I'm gonna keep doin' 'em both cause they make me happy! [Slams door, then comes back.] And you're wrong, Mama! Alligators are ornery because of their medulla oblongata! [Slams door, then comes back.] And I like Vickie Vallencourt and she showed me her boobies and I like them too!"

Bobby Boucher: "My Mama says that alligators are ornery because they got all them teeth and no toothbrush."

The First Wives Club
Elise Elliot: You think that because I'm beautiful I don't have feelings. Well you're wrong. I'm an actress. I've got all of them!

Dr. Morris Packman: If I give you another face lift you are going to be able to blink your lips!

Liar Liar
Office Worker: "Hey, Fletcher, how's it hanging?"
Fletcher: (groans) "Short, shriveled, and always to the left."

Max Reid: "My teacher tells me beauty is on the inside."
Fletcher: "That's just something ugly people say."

Miss Congeniality
Victor Melling: (about Gracie) This woman has no talent! I was not told I'd have to provide a talent.
Gracie Hart: It's ok, I have a talent. It's sometihng I learned in high school.
VIctor Melling: You are not having sex on that

Stan Fields: Miss Rhode Island, please describe your idea of a perfect date.
Cheryl "Rhode Island": Well, my idea of a perfect date would be April 23rd.
Because it's not too warm or too cold, and all you need is a light jacket.

Thats just a few... I have a so much more! Just laugh and enjoy!! :-P hahaha Yeah im dilirious! Goodnight!!

Jesus Take The Wheel

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ky4rfA_tebY

So a lot has happened within the last year of my life and I have tried all I can to make things right or better. There is only so much you could do yourself without getting overwhelmed or feel like you getting anywhere with anything. I have been up late for the past week thinking of where im at in life, my loved ones, and myself. I still don't have the answers to everything, but I do try to keep a positive outlook on things. I was up and I grabbed my father in laws laptop and wanted to hear some music. As I was trying to find some uplifting songs I came by this song that I linked to my blog....I cant get the song to actually play...Im still learning so bear with me! But the song is "Jesus Take The Wheel" by Carrie Underwood. Every time I listen to this song I get teary eyed and think about how much I take for granted in my life and how the things I cant fix I would just give up. This song reminds me of despite everything how much I rely on the Lord and my beliefs, to take the reins on whats going on in my life and soften my heart for the trials that I'm going through as well as what my loved are going through. So I guess I'm posting this blog to remind people that your not alone when it comes to trials or tribulations. If you feel anyway discouraged or down, just look around, count your blessings and remember there is always the big man upstairs to help you through all that you feel you cant handle. Sure I talk the talk, but I myself need to walk the walk and practice what I'm posting also. I'm gonna try to do all this myself and hopefully it will ease the load I carry from day to day! So just remember this song and post and hopefully it will help you through your days.

Love , Loyalty, and Lies

3 things that can make and break a friendship! Thats all I feel like writing now.

Lying Awake, thinkin about what it.....

Im up for the 2nd night in a row and cant sleep. One cause my youngest seems to have a fever, so i gave him some medicine and, thank goodness, he is sleeping sound now! Two cause Im still in pain from moving and packing up my house! :-) So i decided to hop on here cause I was thinking about alot of stuff....I look at my kids and think about how blessed I am to have them in my life. I got married and started having kids at 19. Some people think thats too young, others think its great to start when your young so you can grow up wit ur children. Me, I think a little bit of both. Sometimes instead of feeling like a mother I feel like one of my kids at times. I have been so many places, done alot of things, and experienced alot growing up. But sometimes i feel as if there is a whole part of my life that i missed. But that road I didnt take, was it really necessary?! And who knows what kind of path i would have taken if I hadnt had my first son or I hadnt chosen to get married. Im always afraid that a part of me will just break out and go crazy teenager on myself, but I keep myself togetherz, try to atleast. I dont think it hurts to go out with the girls every now and then or with friends and go dancing and movies and things like that. Others have a different opinion on that, some think im selfish for wanting a social life outside my houshold. So what do I do about it? Hmmm...I try to utilize time for me to have "mommy" time at home..but have no clue what to do half the time, so my "mommy" time consist of just sitting on my couch staring at the wall...besides cleaning my house! :-) So my suggestion to others that seem to go thru this weird dilema im going thru...Find balance! Because without balance in your life the scale will lean to much to one side and you will lose yourself!So im gonna try to find balance, in my marriage, in my life, and especially within myself.

Motherhood

Today was an okay day for me. I woke up sick as a dog still only to find out that my husband is not feeling too well himself. So, once again nobody to take care of mommy. So I did everything today with a headache bodyache, sore throat, and stuffy nose! :-) But hey, whos complaining (*all fingers pointing at me*) But I got a visit from a good friend for a while today, and she helped with taking care of the kids a littly bit...which she always does and takes some of the anxiety of my chest! Theres so much that needs to be done this weekend at our residence, like we are preparing our house to move out, moving into our new place, yard work cleaning house, and there is also a funeral! So we have to be out by the end of the month. So we will see how everything pans out.But lets see something more enlightning...my kids!! My oldest is 3 and he is just getting words and sentences together. So its been pretty interesting listening to his "conversations with people" We are trying to potty train him, but he is terrified of the toilet. So any input on that subject would be greatly appreciated! :-) My daughter is one and is sweet when she wants to be! Other times she is a linebacker who trys to tackle everyone in sight! My youngest is 10 months. He has a little attitude, but has the sweetest spirit. I know i keep contradicting myself! Lol but my kids have the best personalities! And are a joy to watch *wink* lol just kidding. Im thankful to be a mother, its been a rollercoaster of emotions but i learn new things and is growing up with my children! I couldnt ask for a greater blessing then these little spirits running around and yelling in my house!! :-) And with another on the way it keeps getting better and better! Well sleep time for the children. Be back on when i can!

New To This Blog Stuff

So im New to all this so as for my first post I figured I would let you know somethings about me..

My name is Tatiana
Im Married
I have 3 beautiful children
I come from a family of 6
Im the 2nd to the youngest
Im half Tongan half caucasion
I work for the airlines but im terrified of flying!
I am LDS and I love my religion, but there are things with the church i dont agree with.
I love practicing my photography skills i just wish I had a desent camera.
I want to go Sky Diving, but I have to not be pregnant.
Ive been pregnant for most my marriage...correction my WHOLE marriage.
I love being on stage, but i hate the preparation for it!
My favorite drink is Dr. Pepper
My favorite food is any kinda meat.
My biggest pet peeve is tags flipped out of shirts, pants, etc.
I miss my long hair.
My worst feature, i think, are my legs, i think their too big for my body!
I have only had 2 other boyfriends besides my husband!
I want a tattoo but dont want to get one in fear of my kids wanting one and asking a million questions!
If i could eat at a restaraunt for free forever it would be Chilis!
I dont have alot of friends, but im very close to the ones that i do have!
I think you have to love ur family members, but u dont have to like them..some atleast!
There is alot i want to do in life but have to wait til after i raise my kids.
Well thats pretty much my life in a nutshell!! If i think of more i will add it! Enjoy and i will see to post when necessary,