**MOTIVATION**

So I was working out and it was on a regular basis. Then I went to Korea and I have not worked out since!! I NEED motivation people!!! SO I look at pictures like this ----> and I am like... I CAN do this!! So I need motivation! Everyone one else I have worked out with is getting results! So I need to get on it!! So I am gonna put before and after pictures starting when I get my program! :) so yeah.. hopefully my results are the same!! :)

ToO cOoL fOr ScHoOL

So I have gone back to school. I started at Salt Lake Community College (SLCC) in 2007 when I first moved to Utah. And I just NOW paid my tuition off, because I was out of state! But it feels good to be back in school. Learning on a day to day basis about everything and anything. :) I am taking 12 credits this semester and so far so good (I am only on the second day). I just did some math and feel smarter already. 

I think that college is so much easier than High School. You don't have as much pressure and the fact that you are paying for it is another reason for you to now waste your money! lol But yeah, its cool. I give props to people, like my older brother *Travis* who just graduated from the U in Biomedical Engineering. I guess thats a Bachelors? I remember when he got his associates. I hope to be just as successful in school. I am still torn on what I want to do. Since I started having kids I have wanted to be a Labor Nurse. But I am VERY into criminology and detective, paralegal, CSI type stuff. It is very interesting to me!   

I have dabbled into photography. My father is a photographer and I have always been interested. But I don't think I could have that as a MAIN career! So I want to Major in something and minor in Photography. Or maybe just keep it as a hobby/side money maker besides my REAL money maker! hehe 

But to everyone who is "thinking" about going to college or coming back! DO IT! It will be worth it. Whether you get a diploma or not, you have your education to teach to your kids or grand kids! Stay in school! and don't be TOO COOL!!!

*Serious Note* [Postpartum Deppression]

So this is a subject that I can relate to! I have four BEAUTIFUL children. I am very blessed to have them in my life. But, I do have to be honest it is not the easiest thing to cope with after giving birth. I have had postpartum depression, probably still do. I just think that I have learned to deal with things or I am just busy enough not to notice. If you are feeling anyway

• Sadness
• Hopelessness
• Low self-esteem
• Guilt
• A feeling of being overwhelmed
• Sleep and eating disturbances
• Inability to be comforted
• Exhaustion
• Emptiness
• Anhedonia
• Social withdrawal
• Low or no energy
• Becoming easily frustrated
• Feeling inadequate in taking care of the baby
• Impaired speech and writing
• Spells of anger towards others
• Increased anxiety or panic attacks
• Decreased sex drive

 ESPECIALLY after having a baby. You have Postpartum Depression (PPD). This is very serious and should not be taken lightly. Babies have lost their lives, mothers have committed suicide, marriages have been lost, etc. The list could go on. After I had my third is when PPD hit me HARD! I never wanted to do anything. When I did go have mommy time I always felt guilty about leaving my kids. I never went and looked for help. Grant it my mother in law is a therapist and I talked to her about it on a day to day basis. I still felt hopeless. THEN I got pregnant again. I was so upset at the time, seeing that I was on birth control. And after my 4th  It was WAY worse then after my third. I felt like I had nobody to go to. Then I started actual counseling it helped to have somebody "out of my circle" to talk to about things. I am not gonna say that I am totally better, but its an uphill battle that many women as myself are trying to overcome. Some women have it not so extreme, but others are way worse and can't control any of their thoughts or decisions. Please if you feel any way like this do something about it. Praying can only get you so far. If you are not willing to help yourself then you will never get better. Help others that you think need help also.PPD can happen  to ANYONE! If you are one of those mothers who think, oh i won't ever get that. You are totally wrong. I was like that, and reality hit me so hard. I feel myself wanting to get out of the house so much, wanting to talk to any adult who crosses my path just to have a normal conversation. One thing that I have started doing that helps a lot is working out. I have been working out ever night with my husband and friend, routines, boxing, running (occasionally) and it has helped to keep my mind on a goal for my body which one thing from my pregnancy that I hate. I want to continue my education and try to help me build my brain muscles lol. But I just hope people out there will come to terms that they do have PPD and seek Help! I know many mothers who have it and do not seek help and they are not getting better. All I can do is give my opinions and advice. SO this is me doing that for mothers who won't listen to anyone else.

Celebrating Bin Ladens Death?

As most of you know President Obama announced a couple days ago that Osama Bin Laden had been killed. Since then you have seen on the news, facebook, articles, twitter, etc and have seen that MANY people have been celebrating his death. I sit back and think, WHO DOES THAT?? Who celebrates the death of another person. Grant it, he was a pretty bad person form what we all have seen and heard. But, to actually celebrate his death? I know its sounds a little cliche but What Would Jesus Do? If you are religious, what part of any of your religion condones celebrating another man or woman's death? I like this quote from Martin Luther King Jr. :

"I mourn the loss of thousands of precious lives, but I will not rejoice in the death of one, not even an enemy. Returning hate for hate multiplies hate, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that." — Martin Luther King Jr

I feel the same way. I will not rejoice in another persons death. Not to contradict myself. I am not going to say that I am happy he is not alive , but I think the world is a safer place now that he is not here. I feel sad for the people who lost family and friends in 9/11, but celebrating this mans death does not make you any better. Its just not right. Of course this is my own opinion but its something to think about. Don't make yourselves lower then others who have hate within them.

My Neck, My Back, My Neck and My Back!!!!

So I have been working out with my husband and girlfriend for over a week and I am beyond sore right now. I was sore the first couple days but [OhEmGee] Tonight I am seriously dying!!!! Boxing with a workout is kicking my big romp[ass]. Other than dying a slowly death with working out, I have been eating better, I feel like I have more endurance and my bones and muscles are getting stronger. I feel so much better and I cannot express how much healthy eating and physical fitness SHOULD be the most important thing that one person can do for yourself.